The torture lives on

The truth is, I have written nothing but good stuff, positive things about you in this blog.
Things that I have to think about are things that I have not written. For fear that it may taint your impeachable character, the character that I have created you in.
First things first.

How are you doing now, toikee? I haven't seen you in two days and as usual, I'm here at my home, palpitating. And I seem to be drowning in thoughts of what happened to us.

The thing is, no matter what happens, I will love you forever. I just don't know, don't understand what is happenning.

I just want to talk to you. Just talk, and let's straighten things out, for whatever decision there's left for us to make about us.

If this is the end, then I will bow down gracefully, thinking that I have had the best three years of my life with you; that I'm sorry it won't last forever like what you promised.

If this is just a bump in the road, I promise to hold your hand and never to talk or complain.

Please just tell me.

But no matter what happens, let me assure you this:

I will love you unconditionally forever.